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I hate it when Tom jr take pictures of me while I am driving so I refused to smile for him. Of course, he found a way to make me laugh and capture my laughter in the picture. We drove across America and stopped by different beautiful parks. I will never forget the red Sedona rocks and the Grand Canyon. They prove that we are only small in this planet earth's lifetime. Like Tom would say, "God's almighty!" Indeed, it is!
Just being us.
In this society, people like to make you think that you need something more. The fact that there is something better, faster, and bigger out there and you just got to have it. "Keep up with Jones"... If your friends have a bigger house, you would want it too. If your friends have a better car, you would want it too. That is the American way. All my life, I was fooled into thinking that I should aim for something bigger than life and reach out for the stars.
But didn't I forget that breathing by itself is a miracle and kindness is the greatest gift I can ever give?
Watching T.V. makes me want to catch the next show, the next show, and the next show. Because of this, I forget to go out, smell the flowers, look at the stars and have a shared conversation with people I love. Working for money instead of love puts a unnecessary burden on me. Talking about other people may be the most interesting and exciting topic, but what good will it do for my soul?
For me, simplifying gives me so much more than gaining material things will ever give me.
Well what is new with me? I continue to try to eliminate all the unnecessary things in my life and gain appreciation for things that doesn’t cost money. For one, I am not going to live in a house next fall for I don’t need many walls, electrics, television, gas, and so goes forth to make a living. I am going to live in a truck (of course it has a bed). Secondly, I am going on a raw food (vegetable) diet for it will enhance my health, flexibility and spiritual mind. I know my body will go through a tough detoxifying because my body will reject all of the unnecessary chemicals and food that has been hanging around in my body after those years. However, in the end, I know my body will thank me for it. My skin will begin to glow again and I’ll feel so alive. Also, I will stop using shampoo and conditioner because they contain chemicals that unnaturally remove your hair’s natural oil, which makes your hair overproduce more oil. That is why your hair feels greasy after few days of not using shampoo and conditioner. I am going to use dead sea salt and water to cleanse my hair. Hmm those are just to name a few…
There are so much more for me to learn. I am so eager and excited to embark on this new journey in life. Wanting to be in tune with my body and connected to nature, I am trying to be chemical-free, cruelty-free and be free from any negativity. This will be an interesting and difficult adjustment for me. If you have any experience and suggestion, feel free to drop a line, or have a tea with me!
My sister, Tara, is due anytime now! I can’t wait to be an aunt for the first time. I am going to spoil the baby with all of the carrots and broccolis (lol). Then, I’m off to backpack in Europe for two months with my favorite person, Tom Jr. This is other eye-opening experience I am going to encounter and I am so excited. Especially for Tom, he never went out of the country before so I am even more excited for him!
All is good on my end, hope all is good on yours too.
A new addition to my tattoo artwork |
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madonna gave birth to four kittens, three did not make it so this is our lucky charm.
her motherly glow. every female, is amazing, for they carry the seed of our lives.
i will travel across america (once again!) with my boyfriend, tom when school ends... and that is in three weeks! we are going to camp out at different national parks. i just cant wait! it is what i have been longing for, beautiful skies, fresh oxygen and being in harmony with nature. everyday i try to let go of something i have and in the end i feel like a burden has been taken off my shoulder. "things you own, end up owning you." it is important to find happiness in just living day by day. life is truly beautiful when i stop taking every breath for granted.
how can i not smile every day?! | | |
| some people have seen angels
but i have seen you
and you are enough 
protesting against war along with other 100,000 people - bush lied, thousands died - give peace a chance 
not one more dollar, not one more day, not one more death 
gallaudet cheerleading team - cant wait for the season to be over 
love and cheerleading have been taking up all of my time... i can't wait for the sun and warmth to come out. spring flowers, i am waiting for you to bloom so i can start living again. he kissed me in the morning and slipped me a note, "the bond of two people's love cannot be broken. bend it, twist it, do what you will with it, if it is true love then the sun will rise another day" | | |
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i just do not enjoy writing any more. english is an ugly language and i feel so limited when i write.
thank god i am deaf
anyway, only one more month left before my third semester at gallaudet ends. it is hard to believe, really. life never cease to amaze me. where i was to where i am now, i grew. i know we all don't stop growing, but most of times we grow up without realizing it. it takes pictures to remind us how young and naive we were. but the past month, i WATCHED myself grow. the protest is something i will never forget. i gave up my life for the protest. my whole month of october revolved around protest. i slept, ate, lived, breathed at tent city.
when jane was terminated, i thought i would get my life back, boy i was wrong. life threw a banana on my path and i stumpled, tripped and fell in love. life will never be the same for me. i never knew i could admire someone so much just simply because he exists. he is in my life, and that is a beautiful discovery i made. i enjoy looking at the world from his angle. i am falling in love with life just as much as i am falling in love with him.
i will never get tired of talking about him. but i will bore you all
well life is good. every morning i wake up with a smile on my face, still wondering how the hell did i ever get to this point in life.
i hope this is the good karma i deserve. |
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| Aware of the suffering caused by the destruction of life, I vow to cultivate compassion and learn ways to protect lives of people, animals, plants, and minerals. I am determined not to kill, not to let others kill, and not to condone any killing in the world, in my thinking, and in my way of life.” Ven. Thich Nhat Hanh.
buddhism- i have always respected the religion. it is the fourth largest religion in the world. they believe in reincarnation and karma. I have always liked to think that karma is true. even if it isn't, it is still a great way to live life- what you give is what you get in return. the four noble rules of buddha is 1. life is suffering 2. suffering is due to attachment 3. attachment can be overcome 4. there is a path for accomplishing this
right view
right aspiration
right speech
right action
right livelihood
right effort
right mindfulness
right concentration
hmm. makes sense to me. even though i am not religious, i would like to try to understand why people feel so strongly about theirs. i was impressed when i visited a buddha temple and met five monks. i asked them "if i dont believe in buddhism, but i am a good person, would i still be punished after i die, or go to hell?" monks said nope, any good people who does good deeds will go to heaven regardless of their religions.
this is a respectful religion. therefore, they earn my respect.
anyhoo, i learned that people who practice buddhism try to be as stressfree as they can be. especially monks, they practice vegetarianism and they are limited only to water. monks make their own robes from cloth provided from the temple. except for a simple bed, furnitures are unnecessary. monks will spend most of their time solitary, silent and simple. they are not allowed to own any items including money. they will not ask for anything and only accept what they are offered.
why am i talking about this? i am tired of being stressed. i am tired of having more and more responsibilites everyday. the buddha life sounds good. mediating and just be stressfree. focus on better things in life than materials and technology.
oh i wish. sometimes i wish i could fast forwad time just to see if its all worth it in the end
::They asked me what was wrong as I just sat there,
I did not answer them, no words could explain,
I could not feel a thing, I was just so numb.
Everything had taken it's toll, and I didn't know what to do.:: | | |
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